This may sound strange, but I need some help with my doctor

Hey r/drugs. Today I had a very frustrating experience at the ER. About a decade ago, just after turning 18, I decided to go all out with my experimentation of drugs. Ive done every RC and street drug you could imagine. At the time, I was prescribed 2 mg of xanax as needed, and 800 mg of quetiapine before bed. I had been on this combo for about a year now, and things were great.

Eventually I got hooked on morphine, which led to buying H. When I signed myself into rehab, they took me off my xanax and seroquel. The first two weeks were Hell on earth, after taking such large amounts of seroquel for long, but I finished the 28 day program, and got discharged. Since my discharge, I have finished my ba, got a full time job, married the girl of my dreams, and bought a house. It was a massive amount of work, but somehow managed to stay sober except one or two weekends a month.

Now Im almost 30. And I feel like I cant go to a doctor, because of my past. I started having extreme anxiety attacks, and lots of pain after a few surgeries, and way too much stress. I went to a psych, who looked over my file and prescribed me buspar prn, because of my "history of drug use". Any if you who have e…